I’ve been inspired. It often comes from the small things in life as much as the large, ground shaking events. This comes from my friend, Stacie. I have many friends who have web-blogs, and most of us approach it from a geek standpoint. Stacie writes hers like a person, and I really found myself enjoying her posts more than most about web and tech stuff.
I’ve had a web site now for the past 5 years, and I’ve been running a blog for the past 5+ months. I keep telling myself that I’ll get around to posting some more meaningful things here, but I never do. I tell myself that I’ll eventually post the sorts of things that friends, family, and perfect strangers alike can read and actually get to know me. Maybe I’ll learn a little about myself in the process. Well, it’s become a perfect metaphor for my life. I keep saying to myself that I’ll be that person as soon as I get through all the rest of this crap, never realizing that real time is passing right now. People know me now, and just like a blog not worth reading, they’ll not have much reason to come back if I’m nothing more that a shallow existence. I don’t really want this to be record of nothingness. I want it to be a means of communication. That was my original goal for maintaining a web site, and I should concentrate on that more.
I don’t really believe I’m that shallow, I just let life go by. I’ve knowingly done this for as long as I can remember. I make great plans about the individual I want to be and how great it will feel, but never actually make effort to do those things. I say to myself, “when this really counts, I’ll do it better and take it more seriously.” As if this is all just some practice run for when life really gets going. I have this feeling that I shouldn’t commit until I’m 100% ready. However, being an engineer has ingrained in me that there is nothing that is 100%, especially not me.
Here’s where the blog (and hopefully my friends, family and perfect strangers) come in. I need these thoughts out in the open, and then others can call me a flake when I don’t act on them. That’s fair, right? That way my little metaphor here, and my life, will hopefully stay on track. Will anyone be impressed? I doubt it, but I’ll be happy and fulfilled; after all, this is about me here, right? Back to my friend’s blog (all of my friends’ blogs for that matter), it really is wonderful to read what a day-in-the-life-of is like. How else can we know those things? Anyway, thanks Stacie and everyone else who reads here, posts here, writes their own blogs, etc. Keeping up with you all inspires me and is time well spent.
To be literal about a cliche, life is what you make it, not what you plan to make it when you bother to get up of the couch.